Sucks.....

Been feeling real sucky this weekend.... dunno why but just feeling abit blue and irritable... the thought of going back there tomorrow makes me feel even more "sian"... hopefully these negative feelings can pass over soon

It's Been A Long Time

"It's been a long time" is an apt description of my feelings today. Not only it's been a long time since i last blogged, it had been a long long time since i saw the people I met at Yiling's wedding yesterday.

I saw my ex-schoolmate and his wife and a lady who temped in IRAS back then when we were waiting for our 'O' level results (so *pai seh*, I could not remember her at all)...It was nice to see them again.

I feel very happy for Yiling that she found her Mr Right and settled down. She looked really radiant and blissful today!

Wishing her a blissful and happy marriage!

What Does It Mean to be a Peranakan?

Was just surfing through some websites on the Peranakan culture, e,g Peranakan Association, Gunung Sayang. Suddenly this thought struck me - what does it mean to be a peranakan? It is unique fusion of the Chinese and Malay culture resulting in a colourful and vibrant group known as the peranakans. The peranakan's distinctive culture is evident in various aspects such as language, dressing, history, heritage and even food.


I consider myself a peranakan only by virtue of birth (because my dad is a peranakan).Why do i say that? Firstly, I did not grow up in a traditional peranakan household; my paternal grandparents passed away when i was very young. Moreover my family is quite "modern" and we do not really stick to the peranakan traditions. Also my dad hardly speaks to us in Malay; we converse mainly in English. Thus I can't speak (though i can understand a fair bit of the patois) the language at all.

My interest in the culture was aroused when i was browsing through the shelves of the NLB's Singapore section . I came across this book called "Baba Revisited" (if i din remember the title wrongly). It was my introductory book to the peranakan culture (coz my dad was busy at work and he seldom talks to us about our heritage). From then on, my interest was piqued and i did a little bit of research on the peranakans.

I would say that the peranakans have a very unique and colourful heritage but the sad thing is that the culture is slowly dying off. Younger generations like me are gradually losing touch with our heritage and peranakan identity. Hopefully with TV productions such as "Sayang Sayang" and the upcoming "Little Nyonya", we and the public can get known or be reacquainted with the culture....

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Recently my emotions wnet on a rollercoaster ride..... there were some new changes in my surrounding environment and it kinda rattled and unsettled me.. =( I am feeling very frustrated and self-doubts keep popping up in my mind.... I am very unhappy with alot of things... Every time i tell myself to let it go and not dwell over the matter... but somehow or rather it will come back the next day...... so my emotions are like up and down...

Sometimes i ask myself... am i really suitable.... am i forcing myself to much... but the thought of going down without putting up a fight or rather the thought of letting the situation beat me and sucummbing to it is something which i do not want to happen....

aiii.... in a dilemma..... sometimes the frustration is so strong that i really feel like giving up.... but then again the tot that "escaping will not solve the "is alway at the back of my mind.

well i guess i juz have to take one step at a time but one thing for sure there are things which do not sit well with my principles and ideas of life so this is the part which i will continue to hold dear to and not let any negative influence affect me. I can only pray and hope for the will and God's grace to hang on in the face of adversity.

Hairspray

Caught "Hairspray" with my sister two Saturdays ago and personally it was the best movie i had seen for the year (yes.... it won Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, hands down) =P The music was fantastic and it was so joyous and "dancy" that it made me feel like standing up and shaking to the music.... I thoroughly enjoyed the show... my personal fave track was the tune "You are Timeless to Me" by Christopher Walken and John Travolta.... really love the jazzy tune to it....

James Marsden did surprised me with his good singing vocals and he perfectly carried off the slick personality of "Corny Collin" ... great performance.... Nikki Blonsky also wowed the audience with her great singing vocals and the cute Zac Efron was just perfect for the role Linc... =P

But amidst all the joyous singing and dancing, there was an underlying theme of the issue racial discrimination, which perhaps was quite serious in the 60s... though the background and backdrop are different but you can help but pause and ponder over it......

But on the whole, it was a great movie adaption, which was based on the adaption of a Broadway musical....

Three thumbs up =P

Passed My Exam... PHEWWWW

Phew.... really really breathe a sigh of relief when i receive my UOL exam results.... I managed to clear all my modules including Intro to Econs which i repeated this year... Was also really glad to have passed my 3 further units with relatively satisfactory results =P

The only ironical thing was that i did not do as well for those subjects which i had spent more time preparing (i.e. econs and principles of accounts). Think i am really bad at application, calculation type of subjects.... alway felt more comfortable and tend to score better with theoretical subjects... perhaps it i feel more comfortable with words rather than abstract reasoning like econs or lotsa of calculation with accounts bah.... Looking forward to my final year and hope to be able finish off the last year (keeping fingers crossed)....

Was also very happy with my ISORG score... so glad that i did not disappoint lecturer who really help us alot =P

How Logical Are You?

You Are Pretty Logical

You're a bit of a wizard when it comes to logic While you don't have perfect logic, you logic is pretty darn good Keep at it - you've got a lot of natural talent in this area!

How Logical Are You?

What's Your Blogging Personality?

Your Blogging Type Is the Private Performer

Your blog is your stage - with yjavascript:void(0) Publish Postour visitors your adoring fans. At least, that's how you write with your witty one liners. And while you like attention, you value your privacy. You're likely to have an anonymous blog - or turn off comments.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

Hmmm... not very true though... at least my comments are on =)

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Blog...Blog...

Just now i had this sudden urge to blog.... there were so many thoughts running through my head and i wanted to capture them down in the blog. But i had to go take my bath (else my mum will scream head off). Surprisingly after my bath, my ideas seem to have drained away and my mind now is a bit of a blank....

Recently quite a few things happened and the course of events set me thinking or rather reflecting on certain issues,which I had deliberately thrown to the back of my mind. Now it is back in my face and had been a nagging at me since.. I am caught in a dilemma and am not very sure what is the next step to take... There are too many considerations that are holding me back but one thing for sure is that i am not very happy now. There seems to be this heavy emotional burden weighing me down.... stifling me..... my heart feels heavy and I feel disappointed with quite a few things which happened to and around me....

Maybe i am too naive or ignorant of the world out there but the harsh realities of life or rather the ugly face of human nature can be real depressing.... aiii..... really dun know what to do..... guess just have to take one step at a time and see how things goes.....

记得爱

This song is sung by 李玖哲 and 阿沁 (guitarist from F.I.R). Am listening to this song now, really like the melody of the song. Talking about 李玖哲, was watching the Golden Melody Awards 2007. He won the best male vocalist award last night. Was watching his interview on a pre-award programme, he mentioned that no one was willing to give him a chance to sing but the "Machi" big brother (used to be from the L.A Boyz group) believed in him and help him cut his album.

In retrospect, many a times talents are being passed over because they lack the looks or certain qualities. I personally believe that sometimes talent is latent, it needs the right person to discover and nurture the diamond in the rough. The outcome can be sparkling.